A Post: A Quick Moment of Elation

I will update you more about my grandma and my quick weekend trip to Uniontown, PA later. For now, I would just like to say that I am building a website with no formal training, and I kind of love it!

Weird.

A Post: To explain No Post

This week has been awful. I don't think you would want me to update this, so I won't.

Please have some extra holiday spirit, because I can't muster any right now.

A Post: A Stressful One

I feel like I am having rolling panic attacks. I know that this too will pass, but I don't understand why I feel like I am drowning. Does everyone feel like this or do I need to re-evaluate what all I have going on right now?

A Post: A Long Way to Thursday

Thanksgiving is Thursday, but I feel like I have so much that needs done, that I can't even think about it. I don't understand why some people don't check or reply to their emails when they are professors. Isn't that one of the most efficient ways to communicate in such a schedule clashing environment? I thought so at least. I have so many articles that are dependant on emails, and those aren't very reliable, but every time I go IN to the office (taking time off my other job) they are never there.

Enough! No more work talk. Thanksgiving is on its way and I was able to get most of my Christmas shopping done this past weekend. I really love Christmas shopping. I hate the crowds and pushy people (and when did parents stop holding their children's hands?) but I love picking things out for people and wrapping and the whole altruistic feel of Christmas. I would love a new holiday outfit, but buying a cute sweater for Scarlett fills me with more gratification that the perfect office holiday party dress. There is supposed to be cool weather and loads of food. Beth, Dave, and my niece Haylie, are coming down from WV to celebrate with us, and I am really excited about the blending of Jimmy and my Family's holidays. I only wish that these term papers and group presentation would finish themselves.

I hope you all have the most fantastic of holidays this Thursday. Even if you may not celebrate Thanksgiving per say, I recommend taking a moment out of this busy time of year and reflecting on the positive. In a time of hardship, it is most important to realize how lucky you are.

All my love!

A Post: Strictly nonesense

I don't have time for a good post here, but I would like to leave some words of my wisdom.

One: only two men can get away with ponytails, Antonio Banderas and Johnny Depp.

Two: I worry about the youth sometimes. I know, I am but a youth myself (somewhat) but really, these young people that come in to see me, some of them just don't want to be here and I wonder why they even bother. And then I cry a little inside. Luckily, some are really awesome too, so I don't get too upset.

That's all.

Panel discussion tomorrow, scary. I hope that people show.

A Post: A Nonsense Post to be exact

Today is Friday. I love and loathe Fridays. I have a little more freedoms on Friday's because I don't have any classes and I don't have to go back to work at BAE. Unfortunately, today I have to do some running around for the magazine. I need to make some phone calls and I need to visit a professor. I worry about having to talk and interview people, and this scares me, because I know that mentoring is a big part of grad school and I know that what I want to do requires me to make contacts. I hope that maturity will bring more confidence in my ability to captivate people. That sounds weird... what I mean is that I tend to have some sort of strange physical change that happens every time I see someone where I don't look the same. I can't tell you how many people I have had to introduce myself to more than twice. I don't know if this is because I am soft spoken at times or if I am forgettable for some reason. That's not a good quality to have in someone that needs to have contacts for a career. *shrug* I have developed into a more assertive person over the past five years, and perhaps, that will continue without faultering my plans.

So, there is that. Otherwise, I am having to plan a wedding. This is slightly stressful. Plus, I don't know how money will be. I think we will be fine, but I am the type of person that needs a lot of emergency fund buffer. And I love shoes. There's my problem. I have the church, reception hall, cake plans, dress, shoes, rehearsal dress, and favors planned or purchased but I still have a lot to do. If anyone knows about good flower places, please let me know.

And still another note, I promise to get into the holiday spirit, as long as I can finalize some sort of research and an outline for BOTH of my term papers. Please, I don't care how bad the economy is, don't pressure me any earlier than normal to accept the end of the semester and beginning of the holiday season, marketers and radio stations!

Have a happy weekend all!

A Post: A bunch of random opinions. you've been warned

First thing first, Prop 8. I had a very interesting conversation about this at a friend's house this past weekend. I find it deplorable that there are enough people in this country to determine the lawful rights of others based on religion. I do think, however, using their logic, that there is still no reason for everyone to enjoy the rights and other benefits that "married" couples do. Here I go: If, a homosexual couple can not get married strictly based on what the Bible says, then civil unions should become the lawful term for any "marriage." I maintain this because at my friend's place, she made the observation that she wouldn't want to be married in a country that defines it religiously because she, though heterosexual, is an atheist. Though, I don't even want to start in on how the religious zealots might feel about this issue and what they happily turn a bli9nd eye to, I would like to point out that if they feel that marriage is a religous act, then marriage should only be recognized by the church. Otherwise, it is unconstitutional. But really, my thoughts, homosexal or not, the rights of Americans are being supressed and as long as marriage in any combination of sexes is not mandatory, there is no reason to deny anyone.

I'm done.

In other news, Thanksgiving is only two weeks away as of tomorrow. I need to have my papers done. I haven't even started one. Damn it. I'm just super stoked to see family soon.

The holidays may suck a little being that it is the first year without family, but I'm looking to make the most of it. Anyone wanting to spread cheer after I finish my term papers are more than welcome!